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I’ve seen on a several of my favorite blogs that people have been posting their word for 2010. I love this idea and have given it a lot of thought. I also think it’s a new tradition that I’ll bring into each new year. My problem is that I had some trouble coming up with one word, so I may have to cheat (my excuse is that this is going to be a huge year since we’re having a baby and completely changing our lives). Is that fair? I’m not sure.
My first word of the year is BALANCE. This is something that I’ve been lacking this past year, and I think next year it will be more important than ever to keep this word, this idea, in the forefront. I feel like I need to strive for balance in so many areas.
One way that balance comes to mind is balancing motherhood and my individuality and all of those things that make me me. One of my fears is going into such hardcore “mom mode” that that’s all there is to me. My awareness is there and I am striving to not let that happen. I don’t think this is coming from a selfish place, more of a “I need to keep me to be happy” and to make others happy place. I think I need to hold onto things that make me me to be a good mom, to be a good partner, friend, etc. I think some people can manage the being a mom thing in a full fledged way because they are HAPPY being a mom inside and out (I may be wrong about this?) but I know that for myself I need to be creative, need to do things that are just for me, and it will keep me at peace which is good for everyone in the long run.
Another thing, somewhat related, is balancing all of this newness of a baby and our changing family with the relationship that Dave and I have. I don’t think Dave is worried about this at all and I’m pretty hopeful that we can keep our pact to still be “us” but just plus one. I know that everything changes once this new, amazing and magical person enters the picture so it’s difficult to anticipate how things will fall into place, but I’m hopeful and aware of the importance of balancing us.
Lastly (for now), I need to balance work vs fun time/life time. This is where my second word comes into view: ENJOY. I want to enjoy all of these moments in life, and there will be plenty of them this year! I want to find something to enjoy, even if only for a moment, every day (for example, the few pieces of my cereal this morning that had this crazy amazing crunchy cinnamon flavor!). And I want to have a mild awareness of this enjoyment. I don’t want to pick it apart and analyze it but I want to recognize it. To do this, I need to balance work and the other side of life. I focused a lot on working in 2008 and 2009 and this is the year to manage my time better – to balance my time better. I can spend less time working if I’m more focused when I am working. This one is going to be a tough one. I am easily distracted and I love taking on freelance work (it’s a transitional thing). We’ll see how it goes!
Maybe that wasn’t exactly last, in all of this balance I want to also balance my friends and family and be better at keeping in touch. I need to realize that everyone doesn’t like to stay in touch via email and make more phone calls and write more letters. I want to make sure I always send a birthday card and just be a better friend/sister/daughter/aunt/niece/granddaughter in general. Whew. Done.
That’s all for now.
Happy New Year! What’s YOUR word for 2010?