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I want

I want a day of quiet.
I want to drink wine in a small village in Tuscany with my love.
I want to expand.
I want to live for a year in a seaside town in New England.
I want to get my hands dirty with paint and glue on a daily basis. In a studio (or a room) of my own.
I want to learn to play guitar. Really learn.
I want to make enough art, art that’s evolved and smart and thoughtful, to have a show.
I want to make enough money to provide financial comfort to our family.
I want ease in breath.
I want a deeper connection with my husband. Emotionally, physically, intellectually, creatively.
I want more connection in my life. Even if it’s not always easy.
I want to be more organized without feeling too regimented.
I want to be recognized.
I want to be heard.
I want to be appreciated.
I want to read more. Important books, not just novels.
I want to use words like pragmatic and panacea in everyday conversations.
I want to wake up filled with energy.
I want to not fear childbirth.
I want to learn the stories of my family members.
I want to travel more.
I want to know that I matter.
I want to get the thoughts out of my head and into actions and accomplishments.
I want to be more of an achiever.
I want to be a more patient and more present mother.
I want to be better.
I want to be who I dream to be. The me in my head.
I want to swim in the moonlight.
I want to dance in Mexico.
I want to paint in a cottage.
I want to live fully, breathing it all in, connecting to all around me.

What do you want?

five senses friday

:: inspired by andrea over at hula seventy ::

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seeing::
lush green surrounding us, game of thrones episode one on my parents’ gigantic screen, a design that i am digging

tasting::
earthy yolk of a perfectly cooked over-easy egg, sweet and fresh-from-the-garden sugar snap peas, crisp white wine

hearing::
chirping baby sparrows who are nesting in the candle holder hanging nearby, distant laughter of children, Indira’s new questioning “Why”s…

smelling::
fresh sweet basil, sage, and chives

feeling::
cool breeze in warm sun, relaxed afternoon

Back to life

Five Things I’m Grateful For

  1. The three week vacation we just got back from. You can see lots of pictures here! We were lucky enough to only have to stay in a hotel twice (I believe) AND one of those times we got a kickass discount from my brother-in-law, Erich, and it was in a nice hotel. Other than that, free board. Yeah!
  2. Having a hubs who is a professor and who works on his art (from home) during the summer.
  3. Not being a part of the 9-5 monotony (yes, I do have my own monotony but at least it doesn’t involve being late for work).
  4. Having a healthy and (usually) happy kid (weird, she’s so not a baby anymore. she’s all kid now)

Four Things I Can’t Stop Thinking About

  1. How to make more money
  2. Cool places to live
  3. The several designs that are marinating in my mind
  4. Having another baby (the ups, the downs, the money, the labor, the lack of sleep, the magic, the smiles, Indira being a sister – no, I’m not pregnant)

Three Things I Want To Accomplish This Week

  1. Get one site design to a pretty solid spot by the end of the weekend and not just design elements and ideas swirling around in my brain
  2. Get in some good reading time (reading a good book but I keep losing momentum)
  3. Unpack and put away ALL of my clothes from vacation. I overpack so this is a big deal.

Two Things I Am Working To Be Positive About

  1. People.
  2. The tuck (otherwise known as Pennsyltucky)

One Random Thing

  • Our dog, Darwin, has some severe anxiety issues. One of the things that causes him anxiety is thunderstorms. Unfortunately, our daughter may be another source. She’s, um, intense. Anyway, my sister has been telling us about this thunder shirt thing for months (actually probably for over a year now) and we kept ignoring her urges for us to try it. Well, she bought us one and we tried it out on him while we were all down in NC and WOW! By the next day he was chilling through a thunderstorm. Normally he is a mess – shaking, pacing, hiding. So, yeah, my sister was right. I guess it was bound to happen one of these days (uh, years?). Her being right, I mean. Note: He didn’t just chill through the thunderstorms this morning and on and off all day today – they were a little intense for him but we put the thunder shirt on and it did seem to help again!

Silence

I’ve been quiet lately. I’ve been in a sort of limbo I think. I’m not even sure. I’ve been busy with freelance work, which is EXCELLENT, though I feel like my projects may suddenly come to a halt mid-summer so I better start looking for more work. I’ve been wallowing as well. I suppose. Wallowing in Pennsylvania. Dreaming of living elsewhere. Trying to enjoy summer but tired of wearing socks and blankets at night. Summer feels more like fall. Is it this year or is it this town? I’m not so sure. Dave and I went to DMV today. In the pouring rain. It was worse than NJ DMV. We didn’t even stay (for reasons other than the fact that it sucked). But, let me repeat this, PA DMV is worse than NJ DMV. I never thought that was possible. I thought maybe California and/or New York might be as bad as New Jersey, but worse? In other news, it’s been cold. And then it was 100 degrees. And then it was cold. And then it warmed up. And rained. And was muggy. And when you step outside you get attacked by mosquitoes. Wow, this has turned into a whiney complainy post, so without further ado, a little Monday 5 countdown. At 12:28 on a Friday morning/Thursday night.

Five Things I’m Grateful For

  1. The fact that Dave loves his job – this is great!
  2. The freelance work that I’ve gotten lately (yay word of mouth!)
  3. Being a thoughtful person instead of someone who doesn’t question and lives in ignorant bliss
  4. My little family that lives in this house with me (Dave, Indira, Molly, and Darwin)
  5. This little house we live in. It really is a great house. Now, if only we could transplant it elsewhere.

Four Things I Can’t Stop Thinking About

  1. Vacation. Beach.
  2. Taking pictures. And more pictures. And more pictures.
  3. Designing 1) Dave’s website and 2) My new site and new blog and new (separate) photo blog
  4. A sister or brother for Indira

Three Things I Want To Accomplish This Week

  1. Get a decent chunk of a website built/coded/themed
  2. Kick-ass workout tomorrow
  3. Have a little fun

Two Things I Am Working To Be Positive About

  1. Locale
  2. People

One Random Thing

I’m currently trying to find a way to cut down on my internet and connected time . It’s not easy. If you have any ideas, I’d love to hear them.

Oh, and one more random thing. I used to be addicted to lip balm. Severely. I would apply it multiple times per hour. I would have severe anxiety if, for some odd reason, I would forget to bring lip balm with me. It happened on a hike once (horrible) and on the way to go camping – luckily we passed a store even though I was stuck with straight up chapstick. The black container. Anyway, labor broke my addiction. I made sure I had it with me and I don’t think I applied it once. Then, after labor, I was so buy and exhausted and in love that I barely put it on. Now, I think I put it on a few times a day – TOPS. Today, twice. Crazy! I have had this addiction since high school so it’s sort of a big deal.

Monday Five Countdown

Five Things I’m Grateful For

  1. A certain guy who I live with
  2. Warm weather and sunshine and open windows!
  3. Freelance work (I’m working on a rush job right now and it’s daunting in a way, but still fun, and I’m definitely uber thankful to have the work!)
  4. My rockin’ friends and family
  5. New experiences, new challenges, new successes

Four Things I Can’t Stop Thinking About

  1. Choices
  2. Getting back into a regular workout schedule
  3. Vacation, how much I need one, how much we need one
  4. Finishing up (which includes starting basically) my website redesign

Three Things I Want To Accomplish This Week

  1. Freelance list of to-do’s
  2. Make some yum smoothies
  3. Keeping in the patient zone even when it feels impossible*

Two Things I Am Working To Be Positive About

  1. This lame-ass state. I mean, this wonderful state.
  2. The future (wow, that’s big and vague).

One Random Thing

I’m in a funk. That’s why I decided I needed to do this countdown today.

Check out Bookish Penguin’s Monday Five Countdown here.

*This patience one is really being tested with a teething, cranky, crappy napping one year old.

Baby, it’s cold outside

Five Things I’m Grateful For

  1. Heat – it’s so so cold out today!
  2. Returning to my yoga practice AND the yoga classes that I got for Christmas from Dave (can’t wait!)
  3. Birthday love
  4. Getting to spend some time alone (sans baby) the other night – a nice dinner ALONE – just Dave and I!
  5. Indi’s naps (yes, we’ve compromised and are spelling it with just an ‘i’ since I’m in the ‘ie’ camp and Dave is in the ‘y’ camp)

Four Things I Can’t Stop Thinking About

  1. All of the freelance work I have to get done! Relatedly, time management
  2. Money. Yes, isn’t that a fun one?
  3. Summer freedom that hopefully includes a road trip or two or three
  4. Did I mention I’m finally getting an iphone?!?!

Three Things I Want To Accomplish This Week

  1. Finish setting up one of the freelance projects that I’m working on in wordpress, get all templates built, and load with any content that I have
  2. Organize my art supplies or at least put a nice chunk into this project
  3. Catch up on Mondo Beyondo

Two Things I Am Working To Be Positive About

  1. Living in Milford (I could use some help on this one)
  2. Indira’s sleep – she has been waking up to nurse very often most nights lately. I think I need to shift my mindset and appreciate the fact that 1) as compared to most of my friends, I don’t have to go to a job in the morning and 2) she is being comforted and this is a short phase in the grand scheme of her childhood

One Random Thing

  1. I really, really, really want to redesign my site but first up are my freelance projects, and in all honesty, hopefully more freelance work gets in the way of me working on it once these are done. Also, I want to have a new site for Dave done in March! Luckily, that one will be an uber-minimalist artist site. That will make it much easier.

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