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Biggest accomplishment in 2010

So, I admit that I hate for this to be the answer too often, but this was a  gigantic accomplishment. Well, actually, more like 6 pounds, 15 ounces. But it was such an amazing journey getting there. The road there was so incredibly special for D and I. I think we felt closer than we ever had before. It wasn’t easy but it was magical. And then, the prize at the end! This little person with pieces of both of us that turned our world upside down and shook it up. She’s still doing that! It’s been happy and sad and natural and difficult. There were times where it seemed impossible. I recall the first two weeks or parenthood when we had this realization that this was constant, unrelenting, always there. It’s a giant thing for two independent people to realize. It’s left us changed. And I’d say it’s an accomplishment that keeps on going.


Reverb 10 | Prompt 3 | Moment

Pick one moment during which you felt most alive this year. Describe it in vivid detail (texture, smells, voices, noises, colors).

One moment. Well, I hate to be too cliché but childbirth definitely rates up there as a moment that made me feel alive. It was a weird sense of being alive though. I was alive and laboring and bringing more life into the world, but there was a lack of analytical awareness. It just was. I felt it. I was there. Present. Every step of the way. A hazy sort of present though. It wasn’t a sharp, detailed presence. It was exactly what it needed to be. Textures elude me. Smells elude me. Voices were echoes until they weren’t. Noises were in the background, down a tunnel. Drums playing but so far away even though right there in the moment with me. Colors seemed dull which seems odd to me and I can’t make sense of that. Touch was essential. Contract….back massage…end contract. Breathe. Rest. Contract…walk….back massage….end contract… Time ceases to exist. The daylight fades and then it’s night. Still in the moment and the moment is all there is. Sun says hello again but I miss the greeting. Still working. More contracting. More. More.

And then…

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The Best Laid Plans…

Whew. What a day. It’s been a crazy day of ups and downs – very emotional one. Unfortunately, it looks like I will not be having a home birth. That was our big plan, our hope, etc. But I think Dave and I are both getting used to things not going as planned. Am I happy about this? No, but I have to just believe it’s for the best and there’s a reason for everything, including this. I’ll leave it at that for now because it’s been a long and draining day. Tomorrow are tests and then we’ll know more. But without further ado; some full term photos (man, I really wish I were more photogenic!) So, I look tired, have a really stupid constipated grin on my face and it looks like there’s a dead kitten on the ground next to me. Aren’t there photogenic classes that I can take?!:

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Looking forward to…

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So, the other day I mentioned already starting to miss being pregnant and this special relationship the baby and I have right now. But I’ve also been thinking about the things I’m looking forward to (besides the obvious, which is this new awesome baby for Dave and I!):

  • espresso/lattes/coffee
  • vodka (yeah, not like pre-P, a little more in moderation…) in the form of very dirty martinis
  • being able to lie on my stomach
  • peeing less
  • red wine
  • sunny eggs (mmmm)
  • no full time work for two months
  • yoga (power yoga, heavy breathing, difficult poses, not the easy breezy prenatal yoga – the trick will be in finding time/energy I presume)
  • non-tight boots
  • my rings fitting comfortably
  • my socks fitting comfortably
  • naps (?) This one is interesting. I know, I know, nap when the baby naps. The problem? I hate naps! Just about as much as I hate baths. I’m grumpy after I do either (groggy or pruney)
  • Possibility of a move

And a few things that I’m a bit apprehensive about:

  • naps
  • lack of sleep
  • naps (they really do make me grumpy!)
  • breastfeeding
  • lack of alone time
  • possibility that I stretched out too many “normal life” clothes
  • money, but that just seems to be a normal life thing
  • brain function returning to what it was before
  • creativity functioning like it did before
  • time for romance
  • missing my pregnancy calmness
  • diapers

That’s all for now….

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